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Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
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12:12 am - wow I feel nothing,
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I say sebastien today, briefly, while on my way to work, I dropped off a cd to him, we spoke briefly, I felt absolutly nothing towards him, nothing, which was good but, odd, I mean I know it is healthier for me to feel nothing just odder, thats all, I expected more from someone like me, more pain, more hurt, more depresson, more anguish, but alas none,
Odd I say again odd
current mood:  awake
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| Monday, August 12th, 2002
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4:31 pm
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This was rather unexpected,
| You are 16% geek |  | OK, so maybe you ain't a geek. You do, at least, show a bit of interest in the world around you. Either that, or you have enough of a sense of humor to pick some of the sillier answers on the test. Regardless, you're probably a pretty nifty, well-rounded person who gets along fine with people and can chat with just about anyone without fear of looking stupid or foolish or overly concerned with minutiae. God, I hate you. |
Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com
current mood:  amused
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| Wednesday, June 12th, 2002
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3:47 pm - " so sick, so sick"
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I feel like I am going to puke forever and ever.
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| Thursday, June 6th, 2002
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12:43 am
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12:23 am
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Find your emotion!
You are 10% evil! [?]
That's right! You're the meekest of the meek! You're the least amount evil! The philosophy in ying and yang is that no one person can be completely good or completely evil, but you're pretty close to complete, goodie-two-shoes!
Which Kiss Are You?
![What Seven Deadly Sin Are YOU? [?]](http://www.sakuracardz.com/questionmark/sevensinslust.gif) | You're LUST! Sex, sex, sex! It's all you think about! You're not opposed to having more than one boy/girlfriend, and you're very flirtatious. You're represented by the color blue. |
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How Gay Are YOU? [?]
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12:18 am
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22 I act like I'm 22.
This test was brought to you by David - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here.
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| Tuesday, June 4th, 2002
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3:08 pm - Yah me, I think.....
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| Monday, June 3rd, 2002
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10:11 pm - I wish for time to stop
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Ok so work suxs. What's new, Jen gets like no hours when sh eis suppose to be full time, yet gets 20 hours a week. W T F?!? I don't work this friday when I really need the money! Seriously, need the money.
current mood: Bitchy about work otherwise Gr
current music: Seb in my ear,
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| Monday, May 27th, 2002
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6:24 pm - Seb's
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Seb's insulting name is Zebra bastard zebra zebra zebra zebra fucker Odious and unpleasant child!
What's yours?
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6:19 pm - Look at me!!
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| Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
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1:22 pm - O, K,
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My insulting name is Zebra bastard zebra zebra zebra zebra fucker Slutmonkey!
What's yours?
Interesting. Oddly interesting
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1:22 pm - O, K,
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My insulting name is Zebra bastard zebra zebra zebra zebra fucker Slutmonkey!
What's yours?
Interesting. Oddly interesting
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| Saturday, May 11th, 2002
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7:08 pm - Boo! There wasw no pink!!
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| Friday, May 10th, 2002
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1:31 pm
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| Thursday, May 2nd, 2002
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7:41 pm - To Jen
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I love you and just want you to knwo I value or friendship very much. Forgive my sappieness, I am just feeling tearie.
current mood:  depressed
current music: What about us-Brandy
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| Thursday, April 25th, 2002
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5:39 pm - I've got the world on a string.
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Life is not such a beautiful thing. I am passively stressed right now. Today in class part of the movie "The dead poets society". I love that movie, it's so moving. Talking to Dave now. Him and tarren broke up. Seb is coming over, for supper.
current mood:  predatory
current music: Smoke gets in your eyes- Louis Armstrong
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| Tuesday, April 23rd, 2002
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11:41 pm - Ahaaha well duh.
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11:28 pm
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You are the menthol of all menthols. All the other menthols are just wannabes. People either love you, or hate you. You could care less. You demand extreme loyalty from your friends and tend to embody extremes.
Find out what cigarette you are. Take the Cigarette Test by Girlwithagun
current mood:  artistic
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11:15 pm - Hehhe Look at me!
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current mood: awake
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| Friday, April 19th, 2002
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2:42 pm - I miss you Jeff, come back to me,
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I am depressed, but whats new.
Last night Seb and I went to Duncan. We drove up there at like 9pm. For no reason at all. I meanwe just told stories about stuff that had happened to us when we were up island in the past. I think that he will ask me out soon. Lately he has been acting differently. Not good not bad just different.
I have bee thinking about my past relationships lately, I just miss the past I guess. If I knew that things were gonna be like this now, would I have done the same things? If I knew that I would be a bitch would I change? If I knew that I would be loose with my sexual morals would I have done things differently. That one I blame on my stupidity for not listening to my morals with Amen and Adam .I should never have let it go that far. Jen and I should have never let any of it go that far. I mean ya we knew it was wrong but they should have too! We were so young, we didn't knwo what was going, we didn't know shit back then.
Today is call Konrad day, I have already called, I don't wanna leave a message until like at least later tonight, or tommorow. I mean I don't want him to think that I didn't call cause I didn't leave a message, or that I call like twice a day when I don't get him if I leave a messsage.
I need a drink. All these thoughts of the past make me look at myself and go, what the fuck Krista?! What the fuck!? I feel like I told ANYONE all the things I've done they would just shake their head and walk away. I mean let alone what I have done in terms of legality with drugs, but like my educaton, my housing, my jobs. I mean I am goig no where it feels like. I live at home, I work at a dead end job, I don't have a car, I am doing the same fucking courses that I could have done the well the first time in HIGHSCHOOL! I feel like such a fuck up. I have no good relationship to speak of in my past. I mean I've ended up in the hospital before , how many people can boast there ex was so good to them that you had to go to emergency!! I mean FUCK! Now I really need a drink. Thats another thing that I won't go into. I am depressed enough.
I have to go get ready to go to my dead end job now, joy here we go again. Hopefully, tonight I won't have to put on a name tag that says, (thank you Jen for this), "STUPID LITTLE GIRL".
current mood: depressed
current music: The Tokens- The lion sleeps tonight, David Bowie-Dance magic
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